Golf Pechaya Nithipaysankole And Mike Berat Nithipaysankole They teamed up to completely clear their heads on WOODY FM. Mike told the story with tears in his eyes.Reasons for traveling to work in China Due to the contempt and disrespect from people in the industry and the feeling of having no place in society until the passion disappears, life is not happy. I want to overcome these feelings. And uncover the feelings between siblings who have never spoken to each other
I’m so glad that two people came together to sit together. They have both come a long way. What have you really been through in your life? Sometimes you fall, sometimes you rise, it is the color of life, and in the end it passes. It was a learning experience for Mike and I to go live in China. What is the reason for the decision?
Mike: Seriously, at the time she was famous from Full House and there were a lot of people following her and wondering if she was going to go to China or not. Whether you want to go abroad or not, I haven’t gone yet. And then there were different news stories. It was a long time ago. That is, after so much news, it seems as if it has changed. When we go out, people’s eyes look at us and that’s because I’m usually someone who doubts people’s eyes. This is more prolific. I feel people’s eyes looking at me. It’s contempt, contempt, when I go to the mall or something like that, I later stop walking, or even people in the industry. I feel this way.
I feel like when I go to a friend’s birthday party or any other event, there are a lot of people in the industry. Their eyes when they look at me I mean they might not think that way. But what worries me is that he actually thinks he’s disgusted with us. He was looking at us with disdain in his eyes, and I went to one of the events and felt that there were a lot of people surrounding him. But no one came to talk to me. Everyone just walked up, said hello and left. It’s like I’m standing in the middle of the circle and I don’t know what I’m doing here.
At that time I felt like we had no place to stand here. No one wants to get close to us. He carried this feeling for a year. We couldn’t take it anymore when one day someone told us we were going to China. That day I decided to go for it. “Because if I continue to stay here, I will definitely die. I will not live. I will not be able to take it anymore. When I went to China, I felt that no one cared about what happened in Thailand. He was ready to welcome us with open arms without prejudice, without walls, and I felt Very happy. I feel like the work will be more difficult. You have to sit down and read the script. You have to practice Chinese. He’s tired a few times, but he’s happier. It’s more than just being here and feeling like everyone is looking down on us.”
I want to tell you that this is not true. There is no industry full of people who don’t respect you. But it is true that during the time he was in the news, there were a lot of people talking about him. But everyone is waiting to see what Mike will do next. And at that time I was very worried?
Mike: She’s lonely. She’s really alone. If you’re going to think back on your feelings at that time, why continue? I don’t know which way to go (with tears in my eyes), wherever I go, I’m stuck.
How was your darkest day?
Mike: Would you say there’s a lot of pressure? I was already out on the porch (with tears in my eyes), and felt like there was no way out.
Does golf know this?
Golf: I know.
So glad you’re sitting here. Today we are just reversing that. I’m sorry to mention this, but I think it might be helpful for a lot of people. Who has ever reached a dead end and been unable to find a way out?
Mike: We’re born as men. You’re a man, you can’t be weak. You have to be strong to cry. But I just want to say that people who are not in the same situation as us. He could never understand the things we had to face. That is, what everyone sees in the media is only a fraction of what I experienced. As much as the media can tell there is still a lot beneath the surface that we cannot tell. That day I tried to act strong, but nowadays I will say that when we start to realize that, on that day, we were not weak at all. We are even the strongest, but the things we encounter can be so strange that we seem like weak people. Or maybe it’s a chemical illness or something like that which is really sad. So uncontrollable
Golf: That’s because Mike is someone who doesn’t talk much. Don’t tell me how you feel. We are people who keep to ourselves, we have both been in this industry since we were kids, we will encounter this kind of news. For example, the golfer himself will find news about his girlfriend. Sometimes we feel like we have to meet this way. You have to go out and talk about things like this and make the community understand it. In that era, it may not be the same as in this era where there may be different viewpoints. But at that time there may only be one perspective. Wherever the message goes, the superficial reader will interpret it that way. Many people will think this way. It makes us feel that this is not fair. Something wants you to understand that we are not like that. For example, golf also has pauses in its life. Which disappeared for a while after Golf Mike broke up but fortunately, Golf and Mike are a little different. Golf will be mindful, fun and exhilarating, and we use the positive energy there to achieve what we want to dream of so we can get out of that point because we believe that if we have the skills, we will not disappear from our entertainment industry. We will be able to live to our potential
Mike: I’m jealous of him. Try and try to be like him but she’s not the same.
Everyone is different?
Mike: Because I tried and it was tiring. Some people meet me and feel like I’m hard to find. But that’s not really the case, I’m just tired of showing emotions, feelings or facial expressions. What kind of indifferent look? I mean I can act like I can be alert. But I still am, but it’s nice. But when people meet me, why are they so calm? He will have a bad impression. Does it sound annoying (laughs) but it’s really not. Tell everyone first that this is not the case. I didn’t catch anything either. It’s tiring to show emotions all the time. No matter what we try to say we think that if we were someone doing it it would make us very happy. But when we say that to other people, they say why are they so selfish? Think about yourself. That is, we believe that everything makes sense. If you do this you will get results like these. Doing it this way is a good thing. Why? There will always be a reason. But sometimes when I say something and he doesn’t accept it or listen to me, I stop. And then it continues like this. It’s like a recurring lesson. In the end, we chose not to talk to anyone. Because there is an expectation that if we talk to this person, he will not understand. I became more and more introverted until I didn’t want to open up too much.
That day Mike decided to end his life. What awareness did you have that came to warn you? To benefit many people, how did Golf support it?
Mike: To be honest, at that time, my legs were already half a step away. “I went back inside and went to find a seat in the parking lot. I sat there for a long time but didn’t think of anything. It was a blur. Every time it was like that. Sometimes it would be a little heavy and there would be hyperventilation, tension in the hands, And numbness in the face, and numbness in the tongue, but once it passes, I feel that turning 30 is a turning point. I don’t know why it changed: age, stars, astrology, or anything else. I immediately felt that my mind became stronger. I became even stronger. Well, then We went back and talked about it, and there was still sadness. And those feelings never went away. But we chose not to go against it. It changed my mindset a little bit about how to live together. How do we get along? How can our feelings and ourselves coexist in this world? So I added one word: Don’t care too much. Whatever happens, let it happen and it will pass. It will pass. Nothing bigger will happen than this if we pass close to the death line. Every matter is a small matter. As long as we are alive, we can always start over. One more thing: If we no longer leave this world, then what? We are only the last memory, it is painful alone, and there is no meaning. So I decided to continue and collided with everything. At that time, I went to China and collided with everything.
How supportive were you of him at that time?
Golf: He didn’t really talk about his feelings here. Golf later heard that this had happened, but tried to ask him later. But like Mike, he’s not very outgoing, and rarely talks about his feelings.
Mike: My parents didn’t talk. That is, there are a lot of stories. We don’t know how to compose it. But I know generally in my head that this is what we’re dealing with. I thought that if I talked about these feelings there would be no point, so I didn’t say them. Ultimately, we have to solve this problem ourselves. No one can help you but yourself. I was asking myself whether what we encountered was good or bad. After that, I always got answers to everything that happened. Whether it is bad or good you will know in the future.
Now I’m looking this year is a good time to figure out what I can do to get rid of these feelings. To this day, I still can’t find it. I still don’t know the answer, I tried to do it in the past and was happy, but now I’m not happy. Even eating food that was delicious before will no longer be delicious. The things I did that made me happier, I did them and felt indifferent about them. So you have to ask yourself how? But I keep doing it because I want to know where I went wrong or if my happiness no longer exists. So where did you go? What do we really want? Like a lost person and that’s one of the reasons why this year I agreed to come back and do a golf concert. In fact, I was really scared. I’m afraid to go back to work here. With stories from the past, even if it has already been explained because it is still a drama in my heart. There is no cure. So I took the golf mic ceremony as a point where I wanted to get my confidence back. You want to overcome these feelings. I want to explode on this stage. Give me back your happiness and passion again
Are you happy to have this brother?
Mike: Of course, I want to say I’m embarrassed.
Golf: We don’t usually talk. They talked very little. About feelings
Mike: Thank you so much for being here. And stay all the time normally, we may not talk to each other or anything. But when we have a problem or something Golf has been there from the beginning.
Golf: Actually, I love you (crying) I want you to talk to me.
Mike: Nothing at this time. And then I couldn’t think of anything to say. Just to say that now I can take care of myself. Don’t worry. Now it’s powerful.
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